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This is the first day of my last days
I built it up, now I take it apart
Climbed up real high, now fall down real far
No need to me to stay, the last thing left I just threw it away
I put my faith in god and my trust in you
Now there's nothing more fucked up I could do

Wish there was something real, wish there was something true
Wish there was something real in this world full of you

I'm the one without a soul, I'm the one with this big fucking hole
Now new tale to tell, twenty-six years on my way to hell
Gotta listen to your big time
hard line, bad luck, fist fuck
Don't think you're having all the fun
you know me, I hate everyone

Wish there was something real, wish there was something true
Wish there was something real in this world full of you

Wish there was something real, wish there was something true
Wish there was something real in this world full of you

Wish there was something real, wish there was something true
Wish there was something real in this world full of you

in this world full of you
in this world full of you
in this world full of you

in this world full of you

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"I come to this magnificent house of worship tonight because my conscience leaves me no other choice.
A true revolution of values will lay hands on the world order and say of war: "This way of settling differences is not just." This business of burning human beings with napalm, of filling our nation's homes with orphans and widows, of injecting poisonous drugs of hate into veins of people normally humane, of sending men home from dark and bloody battlefields physically handicapped and psychologically deranged, cannot be reconciled with wisdom, justice and love." - (Beyond Vietnam: A Time to Break Silence by Rev. Martin Luther King - 4 April 1967)
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I am not a pattern to be followed
The pill that i'm on is a tough one to swallow
I'm not a criminal, not a role model
Not a born leader, i'm a tough act to follow
I am not the fortune and the fame on the same verse
Telling you to forfeit the game
I came in the ring like a dog on a chain
And you found out that the underbelly is sicker than it seems
And it seems ugly but it can get worse
'cause even a blueprint is a gift and a curse
'cause what you got a theory about how the thing works
Everybody wants the next thing to be just like the first
And i'm not a robot, i'm not a monkey
I will not dance even if the beat is funky
Opposite of lazy, far from a punk

Ya'll oughta stop talking
Start trying to catch up mother fucker
And all the people say
Try to catch up mother fucker

Lauryn said money change the situation
Big says it increases the complication
Kane said don't step, I ain't the one
Сhuck said an uzi weighs a mother fucking ton
And I'm just a student of the game that they taught me
Rocking every stage and every place that they brought me
I'm awfully underrated, prepared to be corrected
And solely i'll sink ya and i'm going sing it for the record
I am the opposite of wack, opposite of weak
Opposite of slack, synonym of hit, synonym of crack
Closest to a beat, far from a punk
Ya'll oughta stop talking, start trying to catch up mother fucker

And all the people say
Try to catch up mother fucker

When they come for me
Come for me
I'll be gone

And all the people say
Try to catch up mother fucker
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If everything would just stop
Then maybe I could clear up my thoughts
If everything would stand still
I could've hidden how lost I feel

I should've said what I hear
I should've let myself fear
I should've made myself clear

So this is how we fall apart
This is how the ending starts
And when we find we lost our minds
We fake what we don't know

I never asked to let go
I never thought I could sink so low
I never let myself down
Until the second I did right now

I should've said what I hear
I should've let myself fear
I should've made myself clear

So this is how we fall apart
This is how the ending starts
And when we find we lost our minds
We fake what we don't know

So this is how we fall apart
This is how the ending starts
And when our heads betray our hearts
We fake what we don't know

Cause all we are is everything we've done
All we are is how quickly we run
And all we are
We are

This is how we fall apart
But this is how beginnings start
Cause when our heads betray our hearts
We fake what we don't know

And if our doubt begins again
The answers find us in the end
So in the meantime we'll pretend
And fake what we don't know

This is how we fall apart
But this is how beginnings start
Cause when our heads betray our hearts
We fake what we don't know

And if our doubt begins again
The answers find us in the end
So in the meantime we'll pretend
And fake what we don't know

In fit of drowning, as my heart keeps pounding.
Scribing on the statue, all onto what's left.
Hold on, to the strings of reality.
Bouncing on my heel of prosperity.

Me by myself, with a gleam in my eye.
Watching it all wash by, watching me die.
It's so hard, to see it all fall through.
But it's too late, nothing left to do.

Chorus:

Refugee, I’m an enemy of your beliefs.
Don't hate me, because I disagree.


Release me, from the world unkind.
A world where the blind, is leading the blind.
It's so unfair, that I can't feel free.
That I have to be, what you want me to be.

Shadows of the past, keep stabbing my back.
Reminding me all, when I slept out a drag.
You're wasting your time, another morning dawning.
Time with the restless, keeps on joining.

Chorus:

Refugee, I’m an enemy of your beliefs.
Don't hate me, because I disagree.
Refugee, I’m an enemy of your beliefs.
Don't hate me, because I disagree.

Refugee, I’m an enemy of your beliefs.
Don't hate me, because I disagree.
Refugee, I’m an enemy of your beliefs.
Don't hate me, because I disagree.